Do you ever wonder sometimes, why someone was placed in your path? It may be insignificant or it may be earth shattering but I'm a firm believer of the Pangloss theory from Candide: Everything happens for a reason and for the better in the end. When I was in Seattle the other week, this young oncologist sat next to me. We started to talk and became fast friends, went to different seminars together and even had lunch with our co workers. I had noticed that he had a wedding band on which was all fine and dandy until... he switched from smart nice guy to sick sad guy who was putting the moves on me at a conference. It made me terribly sad, to think of his wife all the way in NY and he is here, wanting to give me a massage. I don't care if he has a terrible wife or a good wife, a change in relationship is inevitable but how you deal with it, is a true judge of character. I think, meeting him was for a reason: it made me appreciate my boyfriend AND made me realise how I treated my previous boyfriends, were wrong. It has always been my thought that if you wanted to cheat or just cheat, there is something wrong. I perfectly knew that with my past boyfriends. I didn't truly love them, I cared for them. I always told myself that as long as I knew that I won't be with my bfs for long, I could cheat on them. I'm not kidding myself. I did not even think of them. They did not need to know. All they need to know is that I will break up with them. Now looking back, I can see how selfish that was, even though I did break up with them. I should have broken up with them before I did anything but alas, such is the learning curve. For this said alot of my character, I wanted to have my cake AND eat it too.
So, I am thankful I met you Mr Doctor, I saw my old self and realise that I was wrong.
Wednesday, May 20, 2009
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3 comments:
Thoughtful, cuz. Pity he tried to pull the moves on you. Friendships just don't work out after that!
very brave post. very honest. very thought-provoking. wow.
it's neat to see how it made you appreciate what you have and see that you've changed and learned along the way. i just wrote about everything i'm learning on my journal/photo blog. life is full of lessons if we look for them.
great post. thank you!
Don't you hate when that happens? I've realized over the year how niave I am when it comes to being good friends with guys. Sometimes it doesn't really work well! I agree with your theory and it looks like it worked! You did learn an amazing thing about yourself and you have him to thank for it. Life is so weird sometimes!
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