She swore like a sailor, loved her food, her bargaining and her bright colours.
That is how she is in my head.
That is how she is in my head.
Tuesday, July 07, 2009
Apprehensive
I have 2 more days before I head back to Hong Kong to see my aunt. I'm quite apprehensive about it. She has had 2 brain surgeries this year, one with brain mets and just recently water on the brain. She has not eaten normally in a few weeks, I can only imagine her outward image. Her downsized weight, the shunt in her skull transversing subcutaneously into her peritoneal cavity, tubes in and out, in and out, drips. That is fine, I can deal with that. The damage to her spirit is what I fear the most. Her slow and slurred speech from total brain irradiation with just a dampened reaction in general is not the aunt I have alive in my memory. Replacing the fiesty memory of her with something far less, is what scares me.
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I will be thinking of you.
I wish you bravery,
Happiness in the midst of your sad time,
And a very very lovely visit with your boyfriend.
<3 sarasophia
Big hugs!!!!
I'm used to medical interventions from work but it's so different when it's someone you love... Just remember that she is still the same person inside and that she'll enjoy having loved ones around her.
here's to a safe trip, and spending time with those that you love and making them feel loved in return.......you'll never regret this time you get to spend with her.....xo
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